My third-eye, a way of viewing the world gifted to me that afternoon as I sat with her my angel. I am so tired and a little annoyed my main laptop froze when I tried to write this earlier. See I should be sleeping but I needed to do this now courtesy of my Third Eye. That is the sixth or seventh Chakra. It is the color of bluish purple or Indigo. It is my rational self, my all seeing and understanding, conscious self. I had an assignment once in an animation class, to create a character. I decided to create a pudgy little dough girl called Teye short for third eye. She literally had an extra eye in the center of her forehead. Symbolically she lived above the clouds enabling her to see everything. She knows from the deepest part of you what is right and what is crap. It keeps you safe and on the straight and narrow. Tells you to run when you need to take special care or to speak up when you need to be heard.
When I was a little girl at about 7 years old. living in Williamsburg in a pretty bad neighborhood during the summers kids would get in all kinds of trouble. However I loved school for that reason. I loved and knew I needed the school year structure. Therefore, one day on one of my many walks where I would just pick a direction and go I went looking for something constructive to do for the summer. I walked until I came across a large tree lined space (a playground) a place called Lindsay Park. They had a recreation house in the center of the park to get sports gear games and crafts (to be involved in activities with other kids) music shows you name it. It was perfect they went on trips all over the city and I had my learning environment for the summer. It was my structure, but also a creative outlet. They had a day camp. One could attend free of charge so I joined up. We would unfurl the flag in the morning run it up the flagpole have our active day sing taps and run the flag back down at dusk.When I got home I told my mother and siblings about it and we all six of us went for several summers.It kept us all out of trouble and we learned so much you just do not learn at home or in school.
We had relay races played soccer and had dance competitions. We played all kinds of sports. The counselor in charge was Barbara Halliburton. I will never forget her. What my mother and teachers lacked she had in spades she taught life lessons. She also made us walk our little (tuchus) off. We walked from one end of a borough to another across each of the bridges Manhattan Brooklyn and Queens. It was our own mini marathon. That was fine with me we had great things to discover and it was safer than I was roaming around on my own. We made friends with whom we won awards for citywide events for Lindsay Park as a group and as an individual. I was the citys Hop Scotch champion for which I won a camera and a plaque. It was all a life altering experience and all because of my third eye.
Taking away the ground and the sky? Leaving me in mid air with nothing;
Trying to grasp for any part or real piece of me;
So I cry or want to and clutch my body tightly,
Searching and reaching inside for something REAL;
Fumbling I catch the end of one whole piece of feeling;
I try to hold on to it and pull it out But just as it reaches the surface of my skin
It breaks thru the rigid wall of my body
Then oozes from my fingertips and becomes a body of its own
Very separate from mine and me
Very elusive and no longer swimming Darting around with all the other feelings
In the pit of my stomach But another person with no ground or sky.
Becoming part of a Group would probably be a very enlightening experience
If only my body would function and remain as mine in the process.
Em (1977)